Happiness

Today I am happy.
My list for the day is...DONE!
And yesterday I almost completed my daily list.
It is so huge to me to have completed something.
So peaceful-plus actually having some time that doesn't have block on it.
Thank you Lord.
I am (happily) working on a new order this week. 35 tapes to VHS.
I am so thankful for that and have been trying hard to stay on target for doing it in one week. Usually I am poking and take two to three weeks.
I hope and pray this continues but for this week I have the perfect amount of work.
Right now I am eating cold pizza and the worst kool aid ever-green apple-it was a new flavor and tastes exactly like green jolly ranchers. Despite my love of this flavor normally-liquid format is just not right. But I don't want to waste it so before I make Pineapple Orange juice this stuff is getting downed.

At the end of January I decided I wanted to read the Bible in chronological order this year-I am still not caught up yet but I am trying to this week. So...each day is basically 3 chapters and I am making up around 44 days...and today and tomorrow most of my eight days worth (24 chapters) was the end of Exodus/Leviticus. I hate to say it but I just feel like mourning whenever I have to read Leviticus. *sighs*

I have been really invested in all the news about the missing plane...it's so crazy. And the news from Ukraine...everything is so scary and sometimes (not today thankfully) its hard for me not to swept away in discouragement...but then I remember three things that help...
1. A quote from LOST "There's only one ending everything before that is just progress."
I find that very comforting.
2. So often there is that expression "The end of the world' but as I read through the Bible I realize it would be more correct to say "The End of the world as we know it" for us and in this lifetime this may be the worst ever but if we look through history we have it so incredibly easy.
3. Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever-and that's an encouraging thought.

Tonight I was thinking...I was thinking about blame...it's something I don't like and am trying to avoid. If we look we can usually find someone to blame for everything or most things we don't like about ourselves or our lives. And yes, maybe other people are at fault for flaws in our characters or the way we approach things-where we come from effects us a lot...and it's easy to place the blame there. But I don't want to...I choose to be a woman and try and take responsibility for my own actions and mistakes. I believe the past effects us...but for example- my parents...I don't agree with everything they did but I was thinking...there are two parts to parenting-this is very simpleminded probably-the first and most important thing is the belief system we are raised with. The second is personal style...opinions, desires, rule, hopes and expectations...
Now the second part is the part I don't agree with completely-however the first part-the important part-we had that spot on and because of that the rest doesn't actually truly matter-not to me at least. Because we were raised in a Christian home, to tell the truth the whole truth and nothing but the truth, that disobeying had punishment, that Jesus was the most important thing in the world...add to the that the gift of hard work, imagination and creativity and a love of learning...and so I wanted to thank my Dad and Mom (Gundar and Kathy) and tell them thank you for all the adventures-the chance to know Jesus, to see the world, to dream big dreams, to learn consequences...I want to say that you don't need to worry about anything in the past because I forgive anything and everything that may been off and I your forgiveness once again. I love you both so much and I want you to know Dad and Mom-it is my honor to be your daughter. Truly.