Mayhem of Mind

Today I am struggling with putting 2014 in God's hands.
I am in frantic mode.
Which is in fact, much more normal than the calm I have had for the past few weeks.
Stress, excitement, hopes.
That is what this mood is made from.
There are all these things I am hoping for and I just want to think about them and obsess and plan and get there! And just letting go is driving me bonkers.
Besides that I actually do need a calendar for next year to keep some stuff straight but if I get a calendar the temptation will be even stronger to get carried away. I need to be able to plan what needs it and let the rest fall by the wayside...
oy...
I am excited about the 31st! I get to help with a Lock-In and I am uber excited about that!
Also very excited to spend more time with Mom and Dad!
And then Season 5 of Rookie Blue is getting ready to film and I am off the walls about that...
Orders are going really well right now but I feel overwhelmed. Two of my orders just feel so complex and I want so badly to do a good job and now I have a third order and I am just so nervous and excited and hopeful about all this.
I also feel everyday for the past week like I have 24 hours to do like a weeks worth of things that NEED to be done and I feel like I am going to explode.
Please pray that I will be able to finish and finish well and for peace of mind...
And for a YAY God moment...
Robert is back to work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!