39 weeks. 2 days.

Got to bed an hour earlier than normal last night-and fell asleep! Yay for that!
Unfortunately it looks like today is an off day for me.
I am exhausted to the core.

Several hours later...

Well I am finally out of bed. Ariana is coloring on the windows with her special markers and she has had breakfast and so have the cats. That is something.
I don't know why but I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo lonesome today. Like forlorn...but I am not sure in what way because the idea of seeing most people is horrific and worse then loneliness. Actually this is often my mentality of late...
I know I miss my sister...and I always of course miss Robert while he is working all day. I'd like to see my parents too...
Maybe it is a longing to see people I love who don't expect me to be alright at all...with most people even those I'm close to I always feel like I need to live up to something. And I just can't right now...just sitting here doing the computer and watching Ari play is tiring.
I feel passed by the wayside and forgotten...
But at least I suppose I am not subject to dozens of idioms with the intent of making me feel better.
I would rather be peacefully lonely I think then be given advice by everyone who doesn't really understand...

After all that moping I had a lovely conversation with my Mom and sister, a good afternoon and evening with Robert and Ari and a fun night watching Lost!