39 weeks!

Yay! Made it through week 38. I think I lost my mucus plug. Sorry to disgust my readers if I have any. Tonight I have been thinking...
And this post may be overly honest and disturbing to some of you and for that I apologize but pregnancy seems to make me more honest....
We all have such defined ideas on pregnancy and all related things. Things we would like to experience for birth was on my mind tonight.
My sister, relations and friends mother's have all had babies at home. In the back of my mind I have had this idea that one day I would try that too...tonight for the first time I realized I feel like I should do it...because it seems so bold and courageous and I want to be bold and courageous...but the truth is...which I only just realized...having a baby at home honestly has no appeal to me at all.
It doesn't seem cozy or anything that I am missing by being in a hospital.
 Somehow I feel like a rebel for liking the hospital better but I do like it.
I like knowing all the emergency stuff is available...I like that it doesn't seem rustic. I like that everything is so extremely available. I like being so very very babied. I like being monitored. I like that I feel taken care of and not floating out there on my own until things get bad enough that I HAVE to call my midwife.
And as much as I want to be brave and all...having babies at home just isn't something I want to try unless I have too...
This time...if I go a couple days past the due date I would like to be induced like last time. I liked that...
I was thinking tonight there are a couple things I would like to do in the future though: (no at home and water births are not among them) There are three things and I would like them to be at different times but...

1: Next time and not this time I want to go into labor naturally...even if it does take a few weeks longer. I would like to experience my water breaking naturally...I realize that still isn't a guarantee though.

2: I would like to deliver multiples at some point-naturally btw. That is more of a prayer since it really can't be a for sure.

3: I hope my Mom will always be there for the little'uns being born and of course Robert...someday though I wish my sister could also be there...not easy since she lives in Europe.

All that being said...after this I also hope to not have any children for at least four years. I really believe in time between children to know and love those children before adding more...it is a personal thing. I would like quite a few more children but spread out over time...my Mom had all of us between 32 and 39 and I am 25 so really...I have time. I want to enjoy my children and my husband and grow a family at a very slow pace from this point on.

Those are my thoughts right now...I believe I will post this although I still may write more today.

Oh and happy thing, we finally came up with a reasonable plan for vacation this year! I hope it comes to pass...it is partially with the intention of high hopes for next year! More on that later.